of observation

I was finally observed by Nazir this morning. I wasn't prepared and I didn't know she is coming. But honestly speaking, not knowing her coming or even present at school did me good. I wasn't at all nervous. I was just surprised she was there.

The only bad thing was that, I was so unprepared, I haven't put my LP in my folder. =/ So, I just had to show her afterwards.

The class I was in was also not helping in her giving me a reasonable grade. 5 Abyadh IS the most difficult class to handle so far. They didn't listen well, or couldn't. They like to roam around even when I'm teaching in front of the class and couldn't do as I told. Partially maybe it was my fault because when I first took over the class, I probably look like a sporting teacher, all smiley and gentle.

So, when I finally took over 5 Ahmar today, I was all like "I'm fierce, do the fierce face".

Anyway, so far, so good.

I Choose

“I choose to write because it’s perfect for me. It’s an escape, a place I can go to hide. It’s a friend, when I feel out casted from everyone else. It’s a journal, when the only story I can tell is my own. It’s a book, when I need to be somewhere else. It’s control, when I feel so out of control. It’s healing, when everything seems pretty messed up. And it’s fun, when life is just flat-out boring.”

—	Alysha Speer

Of Career

Although it has only been a little bit over a month, being a teacher has taught me many things. If I'm being honest, teacher is not a profession I would like to seek. In fact, I tried my best to steer away from it. Not because it isn't a great job or anything, it is just because I don't think I'll be good at it...

What I have learnt so far is that... 1. I'm not a good teacher. I don't know if it makes me a bad one, but I'm definitely not a good one. At least not yet. 2. I'm unorganized, that's for sure. 3. I'm careless. 4. I simply don't know how to be a teacher...

But I'm trying my best.

The thing is, I'm given a subject that is not in my field of expertise. Although I don't think I have any 'expertise' at all, but I would like to teach Academic subjects (excluding Mathematics, of course). However, I have to settle for something different. Maybe, it is easy as I'm only teaching Year 5 but If I'm not very good at it, how can I teach it to these children?

Anyway,
Hats off to those people who naturally can teach well. My respect goes to all of you.